I’d bet that if I did a count the word “ramble” or some variation thereof would be the most frequently used word in my post titles. Because that’s what I’m good at and, as I always say, one should go with one’s talents.
I had a counseling session last night, which was (as you may expect) full of ramblings. We talked about my goal weight and putting a number on it. As I told my counselor, it’s not that I’m going to get bent out of shape if I never see the number, but I want to know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel. Saying “We’ll see how it goes” just doesn’t work for me in this case. If I do that, I’m going to feel like being in the weight loss stage is never going to end; I already feel like it’s been entirely too long and I should have been at goal (whatever that is) long ago.
We both agreed that 145 (putting me at a “normal” BMI) would be WAY too skinny and unrealistic for me as my pre-plastic surgery goal. But since I don’t have any reference as to what I look like at different weights, it’s hard to know if 160 is even reasonable. So, I’m changing everything to reflect a goal of 180 pounds. When I get there, I’m going to take it five pounds at a time until I’m at a weight that’s sustainable for me. If that means staying at 180, I’m okay with that. I look at pictures on the blogs of other bandsters who are my height (5’4″), and 170-180 looks great on them. I have the same hope for me.
And really, the thought of losing 30 more pounds sounds a lot more doable than another 50. When I think that I have 50 pounds left, I just want to give up. When I think of losing 30, I’m ready to take it on!
So–new goal: 180, then 5 pounds at a time until I’m satisfied and at a weight I can maintain.
I’m not sure how my weigh-in’s going to go tomorrow. I was at 209.2 over the weekend, but today the scale read 211.2! It’s pretty typical–I’ll see a number that I think is unrealistically low (like this weekend’s, which would have meant that I lost two pounds in two or three days), and then the number goes up and up and up. BOUNCE! So it’ll be interesting. I might wake up and see 215 tomorrow!